Miss her! wanna see her!

im starting to feel frustrated, no, VERY frustrated with the current rumors about hematology short semester.. there is a big chance that i will not be able to go back to malaysia at all.. damn it! so sad.. i really want to go back.. see my family, see her... miss all of them so much.. i heard mama is getting thinner nowadays..

there are lots of things i want to do back in my country.. sigh..

i miss my darling shikhin soooo much.. i keep staring at her pics so many times that i feel even sadder.. i wrote her a song and played it already through the phone.. if she can catch the wordings, she would notice that at the end of second verse, i said "i miss u baby, so why wont u just come to me".. hehe (ayat pancing).. since i cant go back. it would be a dream come true for me if she comes here instead..

here are some pics she send to me recently.. how pretty.. sometimes, nope, most of the time i feel that i dont deserve her..

i dont get it when she said shes fat and all.. i dont think this is even near to fat..

soooooo beautiful.. its like the prettiest being i ever seen.. nobody else is as pretty to me.. and i mean it with every cells of my body..