Depression is depressing, yup, it is

i dont feel that good today.. well, im feeling quite bad actually.. having this lil headache and some joint pain.. and my mind is stressed by reasons that i myself couldn't figure out..

i have a very early in the morning clinical skill lab tomorrow and seriously, i have this feeling that i will not be able to wake up early tomorrow.. sigh..

my whole body feels weak.. so weak.. i have a severe sleep disturbance.. i slept either too short or too long.. i've been thinking about problems again and again.. it is mostly like i'm doing this intentionally.. it is like my mind is telling me to stress myself out and keep thinking.. weird, isn't it?

i dont like being tensed, nobody does.. but now, my body is telling me to be tensed.. to be sick.. i am totally out of control.. i have to take quite a long time just to write this down.. medically, in my opinion, i'm having an acute depression.. but of course, i cant take my own opinion too seriously because i'm just a 2nd year student anyway.. huhhh... just hoping to feel better soon..