Cant sleep..too excited..

I am either extremely excited or pathologically unstable (meaning = sick) because i was supposed to be sleeping by now and yet here i am, blogging.. God knows how much i needed a nice sleep right now.. but all i can think of is the image of me being home, back where i rightfully belong.. its Subuh already.. Adoi...

i started imagining stuffs.. Things to do later.. What to chat with my family... What to eat.. how to convince mama that salt is the lasting she needed right now without making her bombard me with counter-questions such as "habis tu mama tak payah makan ape2 ke?"..haha.. how to tell everybody why am I still fat when my picture showed a slight shrinkage.. (angles, thats why).. how to answer medical-related questions by everyone without being pressured by their high expectations..(thats the hardest part).. how to sleep early because i dont want my family to notice my sleeping disorder because they might be worried.. emmm

As for my beautiful beloved girl.. How to hug my syg soooooo much without making her feel uncomfortable and say "hey, thats it.. too much, enough!".... haha.. how to make her happy by just being home for her.. how to hang out without money because MARA's might be a little late due to chinese new year..(im so freaking out on this one).. how to walk around the shopping mall, holding hands, intimate, hugging n etc from the very first minute or second if possible, because she normally took some time for the momentum to hits.. how to look her in the eyes and without saying a word, reveals the fact that "hey, i really want you, and only you for the rest of my life and that i will love you forever and that this is not an exaggeration and i really3 mean it,"... "i wanna build a family with you, even more, build a life with you... I'm going to study hard, be a successful doctor and make you proud to have me in your life.."... well, thats quite long for eyes to speak for.. normally requires my mouth to send the whole messages.. but i'll try anyway.. haha..

its 5am already.. =)