early bird has to wait

i woke up early, get myself ready and woke my friends up only for them to tell me, "pleno 8.30am la baim, bukan 7.30'".. hhaha. haihh. its ok, being early does no harm to me anyway.

i feel very low nowadays. got lots of stuff to do, and lots of things in my mind. and i decided to just put every emotions aside for the moment. im a bid sad and etc, but i decided to swallow them all, because i love my loved ones too much to keep bothering them and adding burden to their shoulders. im not supposed to be telling people that i need to talk to someone, simply because they always have other things, better things to do other than talking to me. sometimes, i dont even want to talk about specific problems, just wanna chat a lil bit, talking about what im doing, how im doing, what im learning which could be very boring (i know that), but still, sometimes thats all i wanted. but i learn a lesson, to bore is to annoy. so here i am. clearing off all my emotions for a while.

i always believe that i'm strong. and being strong means that the one person you could always rely on to talk about anything, anytime and anywhere is always yourself. (this only works for me)..

therefore, i vowed to myself, "aku takkan menjaja cerita kalau tiada yang ingin mendengar," or in simple conceptual aspect, i will not go around begging for ears anymore.

feel better writing this down. (hahhh, lega sikit)