related to post below (special)

love the bike! thank u mama!!! ur the best!!!!! post a different post just to thank my mum, hehe

my lovely bike!!!

i don't have to write much about it, the pics will tell u all u need to know about my bike and why people were in awe when they saw me riding it..

----i will add, 2 leather bags below the back seat, back-support for the back seat and some flames or any other great bodywork on the tank.. hehe

dokter muda/ koas

getting ready to dive into the whole new world of med-studies.. have my half-MD (i suppose) and already went to the ceremony and being officialized.. not so many pics tho because 1)i dont have a decent camere, 2)my phone ran low on battery, 3)its raining heavily outside the medical faculty.. but here are some pics of me n couple of my housemates (khalis n rashid)

looking at the time.. hehe, thanks babah for the new watch!!!

my daily outfit (minus the white shirt beneath the coat) from january onwards for 2 years.. hehe

me n HER

hehe, i have lots of pics of my dates with my darling during the holiday, but i don't think its appropriate to just put the pics without writing lots about it, n due to my busy schedule, i have to postpone putting the pics inside here.. hehe, sorry

pindah randah during holiday

after lots of years, my family decided its time to open a new chapter, that decision includes moving out from the house and prepare the old house for major renovation. it was a busy day, and i cant describe how hectic that day was.. tiring.. but at the same time, refreshingly happy..

i know, i know, im super-fat.. nonetheless, memories are memories, so i daringly put these pics in my blog. hehe

should/should not?

just got back from a long boring tiring plenary session. just had my lunch too. im not really into the idea of going to class because we will only be having 1 class this afternoon, "pulmonary disease in geriatric patients", which sounds interesting, i know, but since there will only be 1 class... hehe

contemplating wether or not i should go to class. have to decide within 20 minutes. weighing pros and cons. emmm

early bird has to wait

i woke up early, get myself ready and woke my friends up only for them to tell me, "pleno 8.30am la baim, bukan 7.30'".. hhaha. haihh. its ok, being early does no harm to me anyway.

i feel very low nowadays. got lots of stuff to do, and lots of things in my mind. and i decided to just put every emotions aside for the moment. im a bid sad and etc, but i decided to swallow them all, because i love my loved ones too much to keep bothering them and adding burden to their shoulders. im not supposed to be telling people that i need to talk to someone, simply because they always have other things, better things to do other than talking to me. sometimes, i dont even want to talk about specific problems, just wanna chat a lil bit, talking about what im doing, how im doing, what im learning which could be very boring (i know that), but still, sometimes thats all i wanted. but i learn a lesson, to bore is to annoy. so here i am. clearing off all my emotions for a while.

i always believe that i'm strong. and being strong means that the one person you could always rely on to talk about anything, anytime and anywhere is always yourself. (this only works for me)..

therefore, i vowed to myself, "aku takkan menjaja cerita kalau tiada yang ingin mendengar," or in simple conceptual aspect, i will not go around begging for ears anymore.

feel better writing this down. (hahhh, lega sikit)

pictures

i received a group of pictures last few days from her, so i decided to share some of my latest. afterall, i always taught her to be fair but somehow in terms of pictures, i rarely shared mine.i just put some pics here so that she could take a look later when shes free. she never asked for any though, but i just hope she likes them.

so this is how my room looks like, well part of it. but i mostly spend my time around this area, my bed and my study table.

this is me, getting fatter by the day.. (btw hun, i envy u on your recent skinniness)

this is me in my nike gym sleeveless, haha. the funny thing is, i didn't even go to the gym, so why should i really be having any of such outfit?? the question shall remain unanswered.

ok, wont keep this secret any longer, i've registered myself at a gym nearby last week, only been there once so far, but plan to go regularly by next week. hehe. wish me luck!

this is a pic of me wearing my nerdy glasses. looks weird? i know. sigh.

all these pictures were taken today, so that makes them the latest me. so the conclusion is, the latest me is fatter, looks nerdier (or more nerd, whatever) but perhaps a little lighter in color of the skin. hehe

so thats all for now. i planned to record a video, but somehow my friend's camera ran out of battery. too bad, i know. miss u so much.

ME.. down low

its been a loong time again since i last wrote on my blog, so latest update is i'm having my emergency and traumatology block at the moment. its half way through already and for various reasons i found myself still in the shades of grey. hehe. and yup, i passed all the subjects for the previous semester. all of it! and some are considered very ok too..

about me, im currently very tensed. very down. and very blurr. i've been thinking about all the possible 'what if' situation and it really gets to me this time around. i felt tired very easily nowadays, and sometimes it affected my health too.

i wasnt the best in previous semester, but im surely not among the worse, in fact, i did pretty well and im so proud of myself for doing that. however, (here comes the negativity), i found that people around me especially my parents think that despite not having the basic needs of a student, i still manage to score, which is true, and i dont deny, but that actually gave them the idea that i might not need all the things after all. sigh.

it came to my attention that my mum is also struggling with her work with her boss sentenced to jail for some reason and i am put in the situation that i am forced to stop hoping, all this while i live with hoping for the best possible outcome, it never really paid off and it hurts but its a lot better than having no hope at all. but now, im on the verge of becoming hopeless. im tensed because i know i cant do anything about it other than pray, i cant talk about it to anyone without the risk of people might actually misinterpret me as 'whining' and the worse part is i cant stop thinking about it. at one point, i said im done thinking. and i stop for a while, and by a while i mean a few seconds untill these shitty things start hitting me back inside my head. im tired.

feel slightly better writing this down.
tired.tensed.down.and done. BYE