Chronic systemic i.miss.her.itis disease..

I miss my syg so much... so much... I wish she could be here.. i do.. In life, one thing that i've learned through experiences is that we cannot always get what we wanted.. i want her so badly now but thousands of miles is a bit too far.. Im going through quite a lot lately, and i need her so much.. even the presence of her, live, infront of me can already take half the pain away.. the moment she start talking, another quarter of pain will go away and another quarter would require her to smile at me with that crazy cute smile... and if she hugs me, then all the pain shall be histories.. and i shall feel alive again..

she sent me few pics of her lately, and this is one of it..

I can feel like she is smiling to me.. well, she is smiling to me, but not really infront of me.. too bad.. hope i can see her as soon as possible.. i really think its painfully unbearable nowadays, missing her...

Al-fatihah

Life and death are both separated to each other with a line thinner than we always thought..  one moment u smile and laugh and cook great foods, and the next moment u lie on the hospital bed and leave everyone to pursue the eternal journey.. thats how it is.. thats how it always be.. and often, us, the living, able to take lesson from it.. the lesson that has been tought in our beautiful religion, that every living being will meet their end.. and the end is on His hand.. 

Al-fatihah to my late grandmother who passed away last friday.. it hurts not to be there.. im sorry nani.. i did not make it to both my grandparents funeral.. but deep down, i know that they are proud of me, and they would understand that my education demands me to be far apart, and that they will always love me just as much as i love them... I too shall meet my end one day, and I'll be waiting to hear from both of u when my time comes..

As a living being, all i can do is to pray for u, learn from your teachings, from your actions and from your mistakes.. and play the memories we had together occasionally.. love u nani...

Al-fatihah