alone

i felt so lonely.. nobody is there for me anymore.. no one.. my family is always busy and if i call, its always their problems to be discussed. 

no one have any idea how tensed i am nowadays... 

my gf, somehow she started to avoid me.. she doesnt have time for me most of the time even when she is not busy.. i felt alone.. she doesnt understand me, maybe she thinks that i have changed, but seriously, is it so hard to assume that i am depressed?? she once told me that i appeared to be feelinglesss.. everybody, please!!! im simply tensed!!!! 

just tired of all the problems.. im strong enough not to feel suicidal, but not strong enough to face everything.. will be in my angry rebellious mode for quite sometime..

 

Depression

i have so many problems. 

lots and lots of problems.

If possible, whatever problems that come across me, i would love to solve them there and then so that i can feel a little lighter.. problems that can be solved should be solved as fast as possible.. 

im tensed

im tensed and problematic

but i always wanted to be the person they want me to be.. the person they demand me to be.. untill the day, i stumbled.. fall apart.. 

but i never give up.. i will be that person again.. the person they love..

but i need time and support..

i need a grip, need to hold on to something.. someone..