What is it?

I don’t do anything wrong… Do I? I tried to be the ultimate best person for her no matter what matters at stake and no matter what calamities might fall upon me, I will always have one thing in mind; to be the best for her… and by far, I have done everything within my capabilities and some might not even be possible, but I still did it for her.. It’s like she hates me for a reason I don’t know and might never do..

I understand what she’s going through and even sometimes out of my spontaneous half-witted behavior, I might have said something that gave her the idea that I don’t understand her, but the truth is I do, very much and she knows it.. I don’t want to enable her on some negative thoughts sometimes which leads me to argue and stand firm on my argument.. but she knows me well that I do understand everything about her..

I just want to feel important.. I just want to feel that I matter so much to her.. she hides so much and despite my best effort to tell her that I know she is hiding something and despite her knowing that I know, she hides anyway.. what does that make me feel? Hmm.. I intended to find out what is wrong with me and fix it as soon as possible.. good luck ME..