I want to be MORE

i'm sitting alone and doing what i like the most; thinking (secondary to eating, obviously).. im thinking of how and what im suppose to do to be an impact to the world. sounds too heavy for a guy like me huh? well, that's me.. ambitious and a frequent dreamer (note: nothing wrong with dreaming, it might be true one day).. 

whatever ways i have to do to be an impact, it must start with the very foundation of the society which is myself.. if i can not be an impact and are not able to thrive and motivate myself, how in the world will i ever be an impact to others?hmm.. then comes people around me.. my family, my friends and my girlfriend.. how can i possibly be an impact to them? well, the solid answer of my 30 minutes thinking would be - do something BIG. which therefore, able to instigate them.

emmm.. big things.. well, im studying medicine. its pretty much an impact to my lil sister and lil cousins.. er.. and i used to be above average scorer in school (not brilliant though) which bestow my parents with the rights to tell and be proud among their friends.. and i've done incredibly romantic things for my girlfriend which gave her the impact of me (i think so, wait until she comments this article to know wether its true or not), plus a whole lot of witty advises i gave her along with my skillful methods of conveying my messages to her (thanks to high school debating).. and being a funny guy often makes me an impact to any circle of friends.. not really that big impact to them, but 'boleh2 la' (note: 'boleh2 la' is a malay word describe middling, meaning not too good, but definitely not bad).. 

im hoping that as day goes by, i will be able to learn or find something in me that can really motivates people not just those around me, but probably to larger circles. i dont know what it is yet, but i will one day do something soo big and be someone soo important.. trust me.. i will